Tuesday, January 24, 2012

In high school (lo, these many years ago) we had to read the Trilogy of the King, by J.R.R. Tolkien.  A lot of the students complained about it, but I loved the books, and re-read them over and over.  In the trilogy, as many of you know... the elves leave Middle Earth by taking a boat into the west. 

Today, Hannah's boat crossed over.

Here she is in happier days... very, very rarely did she come out into the yard. Even when we adopted her, her eyesight had gone south.

This photo is remarkable... in it are four of our friends who have crossed the bridge and are waiting for us on the other side.... Hannah, Addie Mae, so sweet and loving... Nick, who traveled from Kansas City, Kansas to Texas to Illinois to Leavenworth to Tonganoxie with aplomb, and Beau, the pony of my heart, who decorated our yard for the last three years of his life.  Always one for a visit, it took only a gathering to get Beau up to hear the conversation.  I swear he would have joined in if he could.
And yes, your blogger is about 70 pounds heavier there.

Hannah and her daddy, same night.  She hated being held and restrained, even though the other dogs liked it.  She wanted only to sit or lay by you, where she could hear your voice or feel your hand on her back.  Only in these last few weeks did she want to be held.

She often would watch me quietly as I worked or baked in the kitchen.

Or snuggle next to you when it was nap time.

On January second, we removed her left eye, because it had developed glaucoma during the fall.  During the enucleation, the vet also did a tooth cleaning.  During that, four teeth fell out, they had been very bad.  We think she had suffered from toothache for a long time.  She did not bounce back well from the eye operation, and she and I had gone to see Dr. Tom four times since.  Last Monday, a week ago, I asked him for a fair assessment of her future, and he told me the best we could hope for was another six months to a year, if we could get her sinus infection healed.  But you see, in worrying about the head, I missed something else.

She had not eaten since Sunday morning, and had only drank a little milk now and then.  I noticed last night that she sat, instead of laying by me on the couch... sitting in a slump, head hanging for almost two hours.  Twice, when she tried to lay down, she sat back up abruptly, and I mentioned it to Keith.  We talked about having to do what we had put off and planned for Friday afternoon.  Again, she tried to lay down, and didn't yipe, but pulled back abruptly, though I could tell she was worn out and wanted to lay.  Finally, she slumped down and sighed. 

You can see what it is in this picture, taken earlier today, I had made a last-ditch effort to get her to eat a little cottage cheese, which she normally loved.
Her left front paw is badly swollen.  She had managed, somehow, we think maybe in her crate, to tear one claw partially out.  There was a very, very sore spot there, where matter had stuck together and infection had set in.  We aren't sure when it happened, but I know that Sunday night she could not put weight on it.  I never even saw it, and it has hurt me all afternoon.

This was her favorite place, then, at my feet, where she could smell me and see me and hear me a little, up very close.  I could reach down and pat her little head.  Not rambunctious like the two little girls, she was sedate and staid, and the perfect little dog. 

Daddy and Mommy will miss you, Hannah Jean, until we see you and Addie, and Oscar, Nicky, Gwen, Jenny, Beau and Lacey across our own bridge bye and bye.


  1. Oh Mary Ann, I didn't expect it to be quite this soon. She really was suffering and I know it was her time. You are so strong. I know you will miss her. My heart hurts.

  2. I'm sorry to be visiting on such a sad day. Pugs are such wonderful dogs and it is obvious that she was well loved. You have done the most loving and best for her. Still it isn't easy... I'll be thinking of you.

  3. I am so sorry for your loss. Her last days were filled with love.

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    1. I'm so sorry about Hannah. She will be sadly missed. Cherish the time you had with her, she will live on in your memories.
      Sorry this is the only way I have to comment, in a reply box.

  5. I'm so sorry, Mary Ann. Don't beat yourself up; you did your very best and gave her every chance you could. May we all be so loved and cared for until the end.

  6. This makes me so sad. But, I know in my heart that you and Keith luved her so much. You both tried your best for her health and wellfair.

    I know she will be missed.

  7. We are so sorry to hear about Hannah. Don't blame yourself - you gave her a wonderful life and she knows you both loved her. She is now whole again and running around on the rainbow bridge with all who have gone before her.

    Pugs & Kisses,

    Yoda, Brutus & Ellie

  8. oh my... that is the "thing", when they walk threw our door, sometime they will "walk out"... Hannah was lucky, she had people who loved her, fussed over her, worried about her and gave her the best life. If only all the four footeds could have that. Sending you prayers and peace while your heart mends.....

  9. I'm so sorry you've had to say good-bye to your dear friend. It's never easy, but she certainly is much better now. Blessings.

  10. This post was sad, but full of love.

  11. This post was sad, but full of love.

  12. So sad to lose your pet.. They are such great friends..
    God bless..


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